Conversation

Let Go

letgo and Facebook Marketplace are the fucking business. It’s such a rush finding incredible items for an incredible price. I’m basically high from today’s successes. It’s only been a day but I’m already in love with LA. I don’t know why but getting good deals make me delirious. Dylan says it’s because I’m Asian.

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At Least You Made

Dylan caught me gazing interestedly at something and smiling. “What,” he said. “There’s a list I made,” I said. “It’s called ‘Things I Love.’”

THINGS I LOVE
Coconut Oil
Cilantro
Spinach
Mangos
Sticky Rice
Coconut Rice
Peanut Sauce
Hot Sauce
BBQ Grill
Russian Lit
Ketamine
Running
Justice
Japan
Knives
Wolves
Foxes
Dogs
Dylan

“I’m last,” Dylan said sadly. “At least you made the cut,” I energetically countered. Privately I was embarrassed that most of the mentioned loved items had exclusively to do with food. I felt particular dismay at “Coconut Oil” landing squarely in first place. Not to knock coconut oil though, clearly I love that shit. Must’ve been hungry when I saw fit to make the list.

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Music

Not Madness


“When love is not madness, it is not love.”
PEDRO CALDERON DE LA BARCA

TRACKS
CASCADA Night Nurse (Acapella)
BIL BLESS Walked Outta Hell
KENDRICK LAMAR FEAT. ZACARI LOVE.
LOGIC FEAT. BIG SEAN Alright
RICH HOMIE QUAN Type of Way
LOGIC FEAT. BLACK THOUGHT, CHUCK D, BIG LENBO & NO ID America
KR$CHN Forever, She Said
MODIGS Heart of the Brave
CHOPSTICK DUBPLATE FEAT. BARRY BROWN Far East
CHOPSTICK DUBPLATE FEAT. CHESHIRE CAT Bounty Hunter (Rahmanee Remix)
DISCLOSURE & RYAN HEMSWORTH F For U (Huglife Edit)
BURIAL Indoors
LUSINE By This Sound
ASA You Don’t Have To Be Sorry
JOHN WICK OST Led Spirals

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Advice

How Brightly You Shine

The goal is not to be loved and accepted by everyone. The goal is to continually become someone you yourself would admire and respect. Be the person you want to know and meet. Work every day to earn the love and appreciation first from yourself and second from those you enjoy and genuinely care about. Your worth and importance is your prerogative. You determine how beautiful you are. How brightly you shine is up to you.

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Conversation

Half Past Midnight

My 2016 resolution was “no more blowjobs” but by half past midnight I had a cock in my mouth. That’s probably the funniest headline I’ve seen perhaps ever. I actually love it. It’s important to be a good host but it’s also important to be a good guest. It’s a two-way street. It takes two to tangle but it also takes two to get along. Lastly, I’m going to start calling people hoser. I’m gonna bring hoser back.

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Archery Games

Escape the room, if we all did it separately, Dylan, Max and Heather would be the first to escape and I would never get out. To be fair though this time for once I solved a couple of clues and was somewhat useful. Archery games was a lot of fun and turned out to be a good even gruelling workout. Max was the most forceful, Dylan was the meanest, Vince was tactically fluent and I turned out to be both fast and accurate. Dylan injured the most people including himself. We liked this fun family sport so much I think we’ll get the equipment and set up our new place so we can play these games at our loft. The place is so enormous it’ll be perfect for all kinds of craziness like this.

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Allowances

Only once can I remember when Dylan’s djing was a bit less than perfect. His mixing had moments that startled and jarred, he was way off his game, but allowances must be made since it was his first time ever djing high off his face on some mystery drug. His eyes were wide and wild and his entire head was drenched with sweat. At one point Dylan said, “This was the worst idea,” and he had the most hectic expression I’ve ever seen on his face. Later he said, “I think I just shit myself.” “I’m sure you didn’t,” I said, pretending to not be appalled. “Everything’s fine,” I added. Privately I wasn’t so sure, in fact I had to vigorously mask my dismay. Thankfully, Dylan didn’t shit himself, but he almost might as well have. Because sometimes what you believe matters more than the truth. Dylan made a new rule afterwards. No more djing while completely fucked up, especially not on mystery drugs. That whole experience, hilarious as it was, was fairly traumatizing for us both. It doesn’t need to be repeated. Once is sufficient.

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Better Than I’ve Ever Been

If I had known the positive effects of quitting drinking would be this immediately clear and obvious, I would have quit years ago. I look and feel amazing, better than I have in maybe my whole life. I’m glad I quit smoking for sure, but I’m even happier about the drinking. I do miss drugs though, I’ll admit that. Good thing I’m already so interesting and cool naturally though right, I don’t need that shit I know. But I’m learning it’s not about need. It’s about what you think you need. “Maybe God is either space or gravity,” I said. “Those are my guesses. What are your guesses?” “I don’t guess,” said Dylan.

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And She Walks Away

When she says, “I’m fine,” she is not fine. If she says, “Nothing’s wrong,” everything is. When you’re fighting and she walks away, you must go after her. Everything takes effort, even love. The harder you love, the better love is. You cannot live if you don’t forgive. Everything good is on the other side of apathy and fear. Whatever you are putting off is the only thing that is important. Do what’s hard. Do what scares you. Talk to a stranger. Go somewhere new. Learn another language. Teach yourself an instrument. Take a class. Travel. Read. Turn off the TV. If you’re not ready to help make the world better, then keep quiet, and don’t complain. To stay young, you must stay positive. Bitterness is the same as death. Every day is a new chance to improve. If things get better or if things get worse is up to you.

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Picture This

Pro tip: TroyBoi mixes really well into TroyBoi and What So Not mixes great into What So Not. Dylan says you should never play two tracks by the same artist in a set back to back unless you are that artist. I say pshaw to Dylan. Earlier I was picturing myself pregnant and in my mind I looked absolutely spectacular with my enormous looming belly. You really can’t beat that silhouette. We just watched Julieta and it was wonderful. Pedro Almodóvar makes beautiful films. Next we’ll watch something by Michael Haneke, he’s another director we’ve always liked.

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You Are Here

If you want bigger answers, you have to ask bigger questions, you have to make bigger choices, and you have to take bigger risks. You will lose, but you will also win. You can’t let the universe push you around. It’s your life. It’s up to you to live it.

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Thoughts

The World is Both

The world is both light and dark, and darkness is half of everything. You must accept darkness, and yet choose to live in the light. Consciousness is the gift of that choice. Every day, and at every moment, you can make the world darker or brighter. You alone are responsible for that decision. Every day, and at every moment, you deserve either the credit or the blame, depending on what you do, the actions you take, and the choices you make. Darkness and light, at all times, at every point, you have the power to make a real difference, and the responsibility to make the right choice.

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Learning to Fly

Some of you might not know this, but my name “Nunich” is the Dutch German Canadian re-imagining of my Laotian nickname which means “litte bird” so flying with Jo was both fun and appropriate. Also according to Dylan nearly half of my conversation amounts to statements like “I’m hot” and “I have to pee” so I guess it’s good I know how to write since I suck at talking.

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Advice

A Deeper Shade of Green

People wearing green are apparently statistically rated significantly less attractive than people wearing any other colour so ladies if bitches be casing your hot man just dress him in green from head to toe and the whores will puke and run, wholly unaware of all hidden handsomeness. Normally green is considered to be a favourable colour with many positive connotations and is seen as a sign of health and goodness. It’s just not a good idea when it comes to clothes, unless you’re trying to protect your man from whores and get him safely home.

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Hair

A Cut Above

Introducing Dylan’s fancy fun new do. When the top blonde part isn’t tied off into three small buns, the locks are silky and full and long enough for emo hair flipping. During live streaming yesterday someone seeing Dylan’s hair remarked, “You look like if Donald Trump and Skrillex had a baby.” Not absolutely accurate but mildly funny. Then someone asked if Dylan was part of the Illuminati. Dylan said, “Well, duh. Obviously!”

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