Of the jobs I’ve had, the roles I’ve played, the things I’ve been, and the titles I’ve held, being a mom is the best and my favourite. I never knew what was missing from my life until I had Asha. Now I know what love is.
My mother killed herself when I was not yet 4. I was raised by other people with other families and was moved around often. I wasn’t wanted, supported or loved. I didn’t have a family that was really mine and I’ve been on my own since I was 15 years old. The main reason I had Asha was to give her the mother and the family I wished I had. Having Asha was the best decision I ever made and Asha is the best part of my life so far. Caring for Asha gives me purpose and loving her fills me with joy. Not to sing my own praises, but I am a wonderful mother. I’m a wonderful mother because I’m being the mother I longed for. In being a good mother to Asha, in a way I get to have a good mother too, because on some level, being is the same as having. And so I am the best mother and Asha is the luckiest girl.
I have such an intensity of love for Asha. I love being with her and hanging out with her, she is such a pleasure, she is just the best. I am so incredibly fortunate to have such a beautiful sweet adorable daughter. And to think I once never wanted to have kids. I can’t imagine my life without Asha and I don’t know how I ever thought I was fulfilled and happy before I had her. To anyone who’s on the fence about having kids, I have two words for you: Do it. If you don’t, you’ll always regret that you never did. Even if you can’t have kids naturally, you can always foster or adopt. It doesn’t matter whether the kid is biologically yours or not. Just loving and caring for someone other than yourself is it. Life is about love, it’s why we are here, it’s what we were born to do. If you don’t experience this, a part of your soul will remain vague and empty and dark, and you will never fully live. I think being a mother is the highest form of love, it is the deepest, the most unconditional and the most pure. I want everyone to know a love like this. For it is this love that justifies humanity itself and is the ultimate refutation against animosity, hostility, horror and hate.