All This Again

I’m about to undergo major dental surgery, I have to get another bone graft, unfortunately, since the previous procedure was successful, but there was further bone loss. Last time I had both a bone graft and a sinus lift and the operation was brutal. The healing afterward was even worse. I thought about pain and suicide, not so much that I was going to kill myself, but about people enduring such persistent perpetual pain they saw suicide as the only way to end it. I can’t believe I have to go through all this again. Fuck. Thoughts and prayers, friends, thanks.