Sharing

I Feel Unwell

So I finally got Covid. I have all of the classic cold/fever/flu symptoms, a sore throat, sweats and chills, mucous, a cough, body aches, a headache. I feel unwell. I thought it was just your regular old cold/fever/flu, but nope, it’s Covid. What a way to finish. Asha’s been giving poor grandma grief ever since we got in, grandma, who has done everything for her this whole past week. Kids, right. You love them so much, so deeply, so achingly, so profoundly, and sometimes you just wanna shake ‘em. And fucking poor me, I feel like death. I’ve been hiding in my bed since we got in. Poor Asha’s trying to cheer me up. I love you guys. Pray for me.

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TV

The Great

Absolutely loved The Great. What a great show. Whoever cast it should win awards. Whoever wrote it should win awards. Whoever directed it should win awards. Whoever did the costume and set design should win awards. Awards, awards, awards for all. Phoebe Fox, Sacha Dhawan, Gwilym Lee, Belinda Bromilow, Sebastian de Souza, Julian Barratt, Douglas Hodge, Adam Godley, Nicholas Hoult and Elle Fanning are especially good. Elle’s British accent is phenomenal. What marvelous television. Can’t wait for the third season.

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Event

All This Again

I’m about to undergo major dental surgery, I have to get another bone graft, unfortunately, since the previous procedure was successful, but there was further bone loss. Last time I had both a bone graft and a sinus lift and the operation was brutal. The healing afterward was even worse. I thought about pain and suicide, not so much that I was going to kill myself, but about people enduring such persistent perpetual pain they saw suicide as the only way to end it. I can’t believe I have to go through all this again. Fuck. Thoughts and prayers, friends, thanks.

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Family

Small Angels

No matter how tough things sometimes are, and no matter how much worse the world seems to continue to get, my trio of small angels save the day again and again. I am so fortunate to have them. Loving them, being loved by them, there’s nothing worth more, and there’s nothing better. Despite all this sadness, despite all that’s bad, what I feel most in my heart is gratitude.

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Advice

Bearer of Light

Never let a hater ruin your day. Just be thankful you aren’t them, that you don’t have their life and that, however imperfect your life is, yours is better, because you aren’t hate-filled and miserable. The only thing haters have going for them is to somehow affect you, don’t give them that power. Let haters stew in their own hateful juices. Misery loves company but so does happiness and so does love. It’s up to you what happens next, it’s up to you what happens now. Even if the world is falling apart around you, you can be a bearer of light. It’s up to you. Everything is up to you.

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Thoughts

The Magic is You

Once you get to a certain point in your life, people start trying to tell you that magic isn’t real. These people are trying to quell your sense of wonder at the majesty of the world, and you mustn’t let them. Because magic happens all the time. Whenever you see something utterly beautiful in nature, and you take the time to notice it, it’s magic. When you recognize the love you have to give and the love you receive, it’s magic. Magic is in the look and touch and nearness of someone who matters to you. It’s magic even when something sad or terrible happens, because there is magic in the very fact that you care, and that you’re still here. Magic happens when you stand up for what matters. Magic happens when you don’t let anything ever beat you, no matter what. Magic happens when you are part of the force of love. It’s magic, no matter how dim the hope, how slim the chances, how great the cost. Magic happens every time you give, every time you love, and every time that you are strong. The magic only stops when you let it. The magic is in you and it is all around you. Because the magic is you.

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Thoughts

Living in the Light

The world is both light and dark, and darkness is half of everything. You must accept darkness, and yet choose to live in the light. Consciousness is the gift of that choice. Every day, and at every moment, you can make the world darker or brighter. You alone are responsible for that decision. Every day, and at every moment, you deserve either the credit or the blame, depending on what you do, the actions you take, and the choices you make. Darkness and light, at all times, at every point, you have the power to make a real difference, and the responsibility to make the right choice.

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Sharing

Dolly & Mr. Unicorn

Taking Dolly and Mr. Unicorn for a stroll and stopping to smell the flowers along the way. Asha thinks to smell flowers you have to blow on them and then afterwards she makes an exaggeratedly loud “Aaaaaah” sound, much like you do when you take a deep drink of something extremely thirst-quenching after you’ve been thirsty for a while. Then she says, “Mommy too” or, “That was close” or, “Where’s my tail.” Asha’s missing tail is never far from the brain and indeed seems to lead the charge of her thoughts. That and rainbow ice cream. Everything that matters.

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Event

I Cut Myself

I cut the shit out of my finger this morning, spent 3 hours in Urgent Care and got 4 stitches. Now the finger in question is all useless and hurts like a motherfucker, I’m 2 finger typing, it’s uncomfortable, and it blows. Hello Wednesday!

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Music

Bent

Amazing new full length album from ill.Gates, the sixth and maybe the best. Dylan wrote and finished these songs while suffering through and surviving a rough couple of years, during which time he also taught himself how to master his own tracks and bring everything to the next level. The result is this wonderful release. Cover art by Siegmattel Visuals X oracular.io. Click the link to download, stream, listen or purchase. Please share and enjoy シ

BENT

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